Wishes and Realities

So we found out recently my young nephew who is Mikayla's age may be in need of staying with us forever. (Or in other words we may be adopting him)
This is a really scary step for our family but we all want Ryan (my nephew) to have a forever family. My son Eli cried when he found out, and of course offered his room. Love that kid of mine! And Mikayla wants to call Ryan her baby brother lol even though he is two weeks older then her. We still have yet to hear back from the social worker, but I am praying hard for my nephew! He deserves so much love him and his brother's and sister's have been through so much!
If you would please pray with me we would sure appreciate it.
Lots of love
Shevonne

God is so good...

So last time I wrote I thought I was pregnant, well I had found out the reason for the lateness and pain was I had a cyst burst. Yeah No bueno! The Nurse Practioner I saw told me I was going to have to get serious about trying or go on birth control. Hearing this I was devistated! I have been working so hard to get healthy and to be told I was not winning this infertility battle was crushing. So I was depressed but not beyond knowing MY GOD can do anything, NO doctor can say medicine is the only answer. I prayed and asked others to also, and God blessed my faith with my follow-up appointment. My regular doc did standard test looked at my history and said all was well, my recent weightloss of 40lbs probably spiked a hormone surge causing my ovaries to be firing on all pistons, he told me to continue with the hardwork and to go make a baby!
Now we wait for God's timing, I am healthy and that is more them enough reason to rejoice! Praise God!

You are my Sunshine

I had a hard week this week. I felt very deflated when Monday, after two weeks of thinking I was pregnant, I find out I had a cyst and this week it ruptured. I cried literally off and on for 2 days.
I ask myself a lot, "Why did God give me this desire for another child? Why is this so hard? And why is it so easy for so many others?"
I had to really dig myself up out of a pit this week. By the time I got to the ledge I felt I didn't have strength to get up out of it. God gives me the strength, reminds me I am not alone, and that he is here to hold me while I cry, and that its okay to feel emotions and not pretend everything is okay when it's not.
I am so blessed to have my family, friends and most of all a Heavenly Father who is constantly by my side.
Bobby also has been my sunshine while these skies were grey, God gave me the perfect man for me. Held my hand and said "We will get through this." That's true love :)
So now what's next? Well we pray see where God is guiding us and make decisions from there.

To be or Not to be...

Pregnant that is...the hardest thing for me to do is get pregnant. These last couple years have been hard but we have decided to trust God in his timing. Well now to wait for a clear answer this month. The pressure is intense, but I know it will be handle by the best. Praying and hoping.

Please be praying with us!

I am one blessed Lady

Bobby and I got to spend yesterday in San Francisco, being tourist, taking pictures, and shopping. Was so great to spend this quality time with a quality Guy. To think that nearly 4 years ago we lost it all. Thank God he patched up our hurting family and we are at a place now where we can really rejoice, and be humble, for it is so fragile..love that is. Nuture it, embrace it, choose it everyday! It is completely worth it!

Lord bless families with the same realization that You are the glue that holds us together, you are the reminder of sacrafice and being selfless not selfish! Amen!

I Heart San Francisco

Okay so honestly I really don't love San Fran at least not like my mother did! I only love it because it is a short distance for me to go to the BEACH! Otherwise I would be in Pismo Beach or Monterey. I am however looking forward to the Rest/Fun/ and Relaxation of it all! The last trip my husband and I were on, without him working was when he had Gastric Bypass a couple years back! It is MUCH needed! I love my husband and sure hope we can manage to have a day filled with fun without having to pull out a phone, check emails, or answer urgent text!
Not that I don't love the people we interact with but I sure just miss the quantity of our quality time. LOL So here is to a great trip, and yes I will post pictures when I get back.
It will feel so weird to be young again together and explore the city of San Francisco, ride on trolley's and just be spontaneous! Exciting...so much so, that I can't sleep and that is why I am writing at 1:25am in the morning...
Definitely drinking some caffeine in the AM!!
Lots of Love,
Shevonne D

End times?

As a Mom telling my kids about the end times seems so difficult, but completely needed. I will be teaching them about preparing their hearts for God, and that no date or time is ever known. We have the promise of Jesus and to cling to his teachings, we could try to understand signs and wonders, predict and stress but we are to wait in anticipation.
This is what we tell teens too. Keep your eye on the prize, the times are coming where things will be altogether scary, but we stand on the promise of Heaven.
Praying for all those who are seeing difficult roads, seeing the beginning birth pains of what's to come, God change hearts! And help us keep our eyes and hearts set on the things of Heaven.
Lots of Love,
Shevonne D